Speaking of Spirituality.... I feel lost.

I envy those who are seriously down to earth, and remorseful for their tiny tiny sins, who are sincerely grateful to Allah for their blessings. I'm amazed by those who are convinced the "bad" is good for you.

I havent been a good muslim of late. Yes i pray 5x a day. Yes i cover my head. But how's the quality of my prayers? I complete a 4 rakaah prayer in under 5min. with no proper, sincere doa afterwards.

Then how are the clothings i put on? I've been buying "modern" clothes recently.

When my son is sick, I pray to Allah to heal him. Did i thank Him when he got better?

Mostly I'm just lazy and uninspired! Many a times i plan to read the Qur'an... and then other things come up and i dismissed my intentions with those excuses like... Tufeil's asleep already... bla bla bla...

Is my heart too black now that i just fail to appreciate and glorify the Creator?

I dont want to have something terribly bad happen to make me realize. I don't want it to be too late. For the lord knows i do believe in the Hereafter. But how do i change my attitude in practising religion?

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nadia said...

"Allah does not change the condition of a people until they (first) change that which is in their hearts." (Surat ar-Rad 13:11)

Whenever I feel that my iman is weakening, I remember that verse from the Qur'an, then consciously make an effort to strengthen it.

You know, Jus, the fact that we actually realize that our iman is getting weak is in itself a blessing from Allah. Because if He had willed, we would've never realized it and would've slowly be lost in this world and its affairs. So alhumdulillah that He makes us realize and gives us the opportunity to do something about it.

I'm making lots of dua for you. May we all make the most out of this holy month. May we get closer to Him in every way and earn His forgiveness. May all our deeds and prayers get accepted. Ameen.

Ramadhan kareem to you and your family *hugs*

Jussaemon said...

Thanks, babe. Yes trying to attempt more good deeds... hm...