Zubair will be away 9th Dec - 8th Jan. I will see him there somewhere in between.
I will be free from Mon 10th Dec - 14th Dec 07, and then 25th Dec - 7th Jan. except Mon and Thurs nights.
Shall the family go bowling on Xmas? If not, then at least JB at weekend? Better still bowling at JB!!!
I'm meeting Lina and Wei Quan prolly on 9th Dec... Maybe i'll ask them to meet again before Lina leaves for Australia.
I'm thinking of going for the much needed body scrub and pedicure. Wayan retreat anyone?
Mummy LINNNNNNNN!!!!! I want to meet you cannnnnnnnn???? before and after my trip. Email me.
The Woodlands Sisters and the Simei Cousins still owe each other another outing... it was either WWW or Escape Themepark. When are you guys free?
Hmmm Maybe i'll gather some pple to play badminton also...
Oh yes, i will attend the Qur'an lessons on Tuesdays that month also lah.
Look! Dekho! I've already started to plan my activities for next month!
I dont care. I am soooooo gonna pamper myself with this coming bonus after too many frugal days. It's also a consolation as to not miss Zubair as much. Too bad he wont be here to take advantage of my bonus. A big HAH to you :P Nope, there wont be any left when you come back.
Invitation to Date Me
Boring Old Me
Tuesdays are the days i get off 30mins earlier from work. It's usually the day that i would like to go out with Zubair.
However, yesterday, i really had no idea where to go. Pressed for time, Zubair just decided to meet at Orchard, have dinner then hang out.
In the meantime, I suddenly remembered that e-Dart family pub that Nan recommended near our office. It's $1 for 5 rounds of 3 throws each. Isn't that a steal? Unfortunately, i wasn't able to reach Zubair.
So Orchard it was...
You know how i hate Orchard. Nothing much to see, NOTHING to do... everything's expensive. But i kept telling myself.. it's ok.. let's do something that HE wants to do.
But he got angry when i came with a "black" face. It wasn't intentional.. Just that my heart was feeling very heavy.. I chose not to talk about it. I thought the key to a relationship is communication? But how come everytime we discuss something, it will end up in a row? Maybe its how i phrase my words...? Whatever, Nowadays, i just keep mum.
We went to Lucky Prata. He ate Briyani Dum while i ate my butter sandwich i brought from home. OMG i'm so pathetic i felt like crying!
Anyway, apart from loathing Orchard, i was also not in my usual mood bcos i dont know how to "hang out". Er... what do you do when you hang out? but u don't know where to go what? I just can't comprehend how pple do it!
I simply can't handle surprises nor impromptu acts.
I think i'm a bore. Everything must be thought of, planned out and acted upon. Predictable.
(But of course, i wldn't mind if he surprises me with a PSP, a ring or whatever LOL... No chocolates nor flowers tho)
"But Are you Ready...
For a baby?" my ex colleague asked me.
At the present, I can't wait to have a baby. I wanna see how they would look like. Sharp nose? dimples? Hairy? Short/tall? I wanna coo at them, buy them clothes and play with them...
A baby would also mean that we can buy a house directly from HDB.
On the other hand, now Zubair wants only 2 children (after seeing how naughty Singapore children are!!) and only after he's got work. But i thought, pregnancy spans over 9 months plus minus. Hopefully, by then, he would have found employment? How long do we hafta wait if start making babies only AFTER he's stable at the job? Maybe only in 2009 he/she'd be born!
Yet on the contrary, i am definitely NOT ready mentally.
Mainly, I'm not ready to sacrifice my time for this baby yet. I wanna go out w hubby, sisters or cousins. I wont be able to sleep my min 8hrs a night fill. Of course, i'd hafta suspend my night classes and all.
I can't take it if Zubair forget about me after the baby. Even now, i'd feel very annoyed and neglected if i dont receive hugs and attention. You wont believe it, but im jealous of my own computer!
To make matters worse, i just heard of a scary incident. One of my relative was using IUD. then she missed her period and was concerned. Her doctor confirmed she's pregnant and said probably the IUD came out unintentionally. but apparently, it actually "Termasuk" or got further inside. It is alleged that if you continue the pregnancy, there is a high chance the baby will have some er... manufacturing defects.
You have all heard that children are gifts from Allah. That they are born with their own rizq or wealth not neccessarily just monetary. If He grants us that gift, we should accept gracefully, but if He hasn't, we should be patient and that its probably better for us.
I'm just a very anal person when it comes to planning (my life, at least). I want to know when to stop medication and when to start preparing for it. Why can't life give simple answers? a straight yes or no. a firm date now and then. Well then, i guess it wouldn't be called life and we wouldn't be humans but robots! (ok rambling on and on and on! haha)
I've heard a lot of pple telling me wait till financially stable, take one thing at a time. Yes yes i know that... but what about the higher probability that Zubair will get PRship with the newborn? and what about Baby Bonus? i dont suppose the $750 every 6 mths from the govt will be sufficient but surely it DOES help?
I'm pretty sure it'd be a heavy strain on me if we want a baby and a house so soon, tho not exactly at the same time, and before he's got a job. But i just cant help exploring my options, Analyzing the pros and cons.
Let's Talk about the Weather
The boringest subject in the world.
Serve me right for complaining over the weekend that its still TOO HOT for November. Now, i'm freezing in the office since yesterday.
Is it just me or is the airconditioning's been increased despite the heavy rain? But at home im as hot as ever. It can't be me... it must be the office... But my colleagues still turn on their mini fans!!! *faint*
If i could wear TWO WINTER coats, i would.
241107 - Bowling Fun!
More pictures at http://jussaemon.multiply.com/photos/album/87/241107_-_Cousins_Day_Out
Manic Monday!!

The ceiling fell!
Poor Pauline who reached office at 8am to get a headstart couldn't access her work till after 11am!
Apparently, late last night on a Sunday, 10th Floor's server got heated or caught fire then the sprinkler rained down a LOT of water and caused a flash flood and the water seeped down to OUR ceiling! 3 chairs were soaked wet! 1 pc totally OUT. 2 keyboards and mice were out of order too. Books and papers went soft, trays became ponds!!
Being an insurance company, we quickly called our claims team to survey the site and he was taking photos and all. Upstairs neighbour's insurer came down to take photos. THe BUilding mgt also came down to take photos. In short, it was utter chaos!
To top it all, actions were swiftly undertaken by the management to clean and/or salvage the property in question. First, their own cleaner vacuumed and blow dryed the carpet, desk. whatever. Then they called in the special Water Damage Recovery company. It was super NOISY, Duper COLD! Even Mike was wearing his sweater!
Right now, the office is smelling very sweet. but the blower is still on! with the heavy showers from late morning just now, i got soaked wet knees and under so now im like FREEZING cold.
Sleep Activities
Do you know that:
- Ever since the panic attack, I havent napped in office anymore? Afraid to be overwhelmed by melancholy again.
- I am constantly drafting blog posts in my head, esp in the car on the way to work and just before i sleep at night. So much so that if the topic poses deep analyzing, i find it hard to drift to sleep.
- Zubair sang in his sleep a few days ago. I dont know what it was but its definitely Hindi
- This morning, we were both talking in our sleep one after another. I heard him muttered something in Urdu.. Next thing i know, i was laughing from some joke in my dream. then near waking up time, i saw a cicak above my head just before i entered a lift and i was screaming. Zubair, then soothed me.. but in URdu!! "shh.. shh.. mera beta (my son) ... eirheifodvkndlfkhe" (Thank god he didnt scold me for giving him a shock in deep sleep.) While i was getting ready for work, Zubair laughed like he was being tickled and talked away in Urdu.
Welcome on Board, Adiekosongtiga aka Ayah!
This is to officially congratulate my father who has finally started his own blog!
Visit his site at http://adiekosongtiga.blogspot.com!
It is basically a travel journal. You'd be amazed by the things my dad observes!
Enjoy~
Tribute to 2 Friends..

Badminton Fun!
This pic is from last week's practice session. They were so busy watching the game, they forgot to snap pics!
This year's tournament's way better and more fun than last year bcos i got thru to SEMI-FINALS! hahaha no lah... bcos of the change in format.
- Points to 21 instead of 15
- Choose own teammate as opposed to "assigned" by drawing lots last yr
- Handicap points. Eg: Double ladies vs Double Men 10 pts for ladies, mixed double vs double men, 5 pts to mixed double
- At least 2 sets of game in Qualifying Round, if tie then 3rd set or Rubber.
Last year, there were 20 teams! Afraid of running over time, we only played 1 set on knock out system. Lucky for me, i was the best in the best 6 "losers" so i moved to next round.
I told you my partner is very good right? He won 3rd place lah last yr! So i was under extreme pressure to perform.
First round, we played against a Double Men team. With the 5 lead points we had, and Wei Lee smashing right into their tummy, we won both sets w point diff of btwn 5 - 10!
Immediately after that, we moved on to the next opponent, another Double Men. I played against them last week and knew they were good. it was a heated game! But i messed up lah with my screwed up serving! I was too nervous to serve properly like how the partner told me to, that it often fell short, netted and once even OUT! *shake head*
We lost but by a mere 3 points. The opponent later got 3rd place playing against 2 other teams in the Final on Round Robin system. Then i slapped myself mentally... "Why was i so scared of them? They lost BOTH games in the Finals."
But its ok. I really felt satisfied with the game. I would say my play has improved by 10% heheheh... at least something what... But i cldnt help feeling guilty that my partner didnt get to defend his title... tho it was only 3rd place! But of cos he dismissed my apologies.
I'd like to play at least once a month lah.. anybody wanna join? Kak Is maybe? And Im sure your dad be very good also being a tennis coach!







