Too attached... too attached....

It feels worse than the break up. The last time i cried this hard was two days ago while watching MANN. but that's not real. But I cried like i had cried when Kamal scolded me about his client's claims.

Yes, losing my beloved dearest handphone felt THAT bad. I LOVED it to bits. yes, i had it coming. It tried to tell me to take more care of it, but i didnt listen. I kept babbling about getting it insured but i haven't and didn't actually do it until it's too late.

This morning, before going to work, as normal i put my bags on the dinner table and hunted for bfast. everything went on as per normal until i was going to turn my hp to Office mode when i realised..... IT'S GONE!

I retraced my memory.... and my steps.....

1. I was sure i put it on the dining table this morning along with my bag and lunch.
2. then i walked out from the door to the car just below
3. this part i only VAGUELY remember.... that my hand was in the phone strap while i was putting on the seat belt.
4. But Kak Long asked me whether i felt i was holding something when i leaned in front to look at HER hp and i didnt feel it
5. but then again it might be bcos i reached out with my left hand when it was in my RIGHT hand
6. then i alighted from the car up to the office.

i called Kak Long to look for it in the car. if she could pick it up then i meet her during lunch time to take it. but she said she couldn't find it.

i tried calling it but it was switched off! The very first thing a hp stealer would do!

I called home to ask if it's there... they searched on the table, in my room, near the door... to no avail. kak ly tried calling my hp... but when she received the mail box she actually left a msg for the stealer to Give it back! heheh that's funny of course the stealer can't access to my voicemail. hehe cute lah Kak Ly. Then she said oh ok she will sms then.

I retraced step 6. i searched the pavement along the road.... i looked ON the road where it might accidentally being dropped. But i hope kak Long is right... if it had dropped it would have made some noises.. which i totally didnt hear... it should be somewhere in the house or car...... NEWS just in... Ayah has double checked the car.... and no sign of it anywhere.... Kak Long has a feeling its at home. i really really really really really pray and hope this is so.

This is VERY materialistic of me... but if the photos were all backed up, the sms in sim card, then the only reason why im crying is i know i cant afford to buy the same phone again without contract. i've checked when i suspended the line, it's $678.

Lessons learnt:
1. Always be careful and caring to your loved ones
2. Take things seriously
3. Detach yourself from worldly things
4. Buy something cheap.

(I'm trying very hard to put these lessons in positive sentences rather than negative ie: Don't take things for granted, don't be too attached with wordly things and don't buy expensive items)

Oh Allah... I'm sorry i only remember you when i'm down and sad or when i have a problem. But please you know how badly i wanna be a good Muslim.... Please let my handphone still be within my reach so i can get it back. Oh Allah please forgive me if im asking for too much, but you are the only one i depend on.... my only saviour....

Bismillahi tawakkaltu Ala Allahi wa la haula wa la Quwwata illa billahil aliyil azhim!