Part One
One day, on the way home with Ayah in the car, Ayah asked me, "Have u considered the teaching career?"
I said i have. i LOVE the perks of teaching. ie SCH Hols, BIG bucks and all... But surely the benefits are nothing compared to private MNC companies, and that with only an A levels and Diploma i can only teach primary sch. And i CAN'T stand teaching young children who have short attention spans! I prefer to teach adults and young adults bcos they have better sense of right n wrong and proper manners, or at least the ones i've taught so far. But mostly, i deliver and then leave it up to them to make the decision to take studying seriously or not. That's my way, unfortunately.
Ayah said then, "Ya lah.. kan start from pri sch. Then you can always get that degree while u teach like what Kak Ly and Cik Ita did and is doing. It will even be covered by the govt."
and i thought, Oh God i can't stand working and studying what more teaching and studying? Cos i know the workload of teaching is like HELL. Just looking at my sister, i get stressed also. BUT if let's say they allow me to study FULL time then i might just consider it.
You know i love mathematics and would wanna teach it in Sec sch. But i think im such a long winded person that im afraid the students wldn't get it. And besides my spontaneous verbal English is NOT on par with the other General subjects teachers.
I also recall there was this time i taught my cousin, Nur with her maths question. I think i was in Sec 4 or Pre - uni 1 and she's 2 yrs younger. I got the answer right but she came back to me and said that her teacher told her that the steps were wrong. Right then, i lost ALL hopes of ever teaching Maths.
Part Two
Remember that time i was browsing for a Writing position of some kind?
Then there were 2 opportunities for me to do a review of something i actually like. Namely the Singapore Recruits and the payperpost websites. I have even drafted the points i wanted to say. But have never got around to do it yet!
So i wonder whether i could actually keep up with the pressure of TIGHT deadlines, editors and writers are subject to.
And i also wonder if i would get sick of seeing words and thinking of ways to put them nicely into sentences. Bcos i remember when i was doing A levels, I got kinda word-phobic after having to write a continuous 3hrs x 4 papers x 2 exams a year x (2 yrs + 1 actualy A levels) = 72 hours of continuous writing!!! *faint*
When i left sch, i was adamant to pursue Maths cos i was sooo tired of WORDS! LOL
Part Three
Then a few days later, Ayah gave me a print out of 2 available positions in the ministry he's working for.
I didnt give it much thought, actually. (Sorry, yah) Becos firstly, Its December and everybody's staying for bonus. Secondly, its quite a junior position i doubt the govt pays as much as im getting right now. True, civil servants get GREAT bonus packages. Perhaps true that its easier to climb up the corporate ladder within the govt agencies. And they get a LOT of discounts everywhere. But.... Lekin.... Tapi... Laakin....
Part Four
The moment i had the intention of leaving my previous employment at MKA, i know i wanted to be an Actuary. They mainly analyse the numbers (claims, premium collections) to come up with the appropriate insurance premium to charge customers and things like that.
I dont have the right qualifications just yet. But i managed to penetrate into the current workplace and i tot i'd start from low while get the degree and get that dream job.
Having quit(ted?) the degree prog, i feel that that inspirations is too far from my grasp. I cld actually discuss with the CEO with regards to a continuing career within AXA, where we would identify goals and ways to achieve it.
The vacancy for an Executive or Exec Asst in the Actuarial Dept has been up for quite some time and for a few times in the past 2 yrs (almost) tt i've been here. Not sure whether its an additional position or replacement but it still mean i can get there somehow...
Part Five
On the other hand, after being married for nearly 11 months now, I feel a bit too old for the career ladder! LOL... I feel like doing my job day in day out just like that. Tired lah... But that's sooo uninspirational. EXACTLY, The typical stereo-typed Malays.
Sighhh... Dear Lord, please show me the way, give me strength and support. Please help me to prioritise. Please tell me clearly, some way, some how, that this or that is the path i should take and remove all doubts and regrets.
You are the All-Knower (for you know what's in my heart), The Listener (of my grievances even in silence), The Most Powerful (for You can do anything that You want), The Compassionate (for you understand the difficulties I'm going thru). With these, i trust that You will solve my problems, ALL of OUR problems. You will answer our prayers, for You are Al-Mujeeb (Answerer of Prayer?).
Time for a Career Change?
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9 glasses of Juice:
Isn't it great to have so many career options? Actually it sounds a bit frustrating for you, but God does have a plan for you, and will soon reveal it. I have been praying for Z's safety as I heard about the former PM's death. I admire her greatly and am sad abt Pakistan. I always wonder if the news shows are accurate or only show the most violent stuff etc.
Thank you for the recipe site, there are several I want to try now. I did find a recipe elsewhere for Tofu Rendang. Will post photos when I do actually make it!
Career:
Jus, cannot be lazy, lazy. Didnt the Prophet told us to work hard as if we are gg to live forever on earth (and ibadah as if we are gg to die tmr)?
The Actuary (tis word cam describe burung eh? hehe) job sounds stable.
Benazir:
Innalillah wa innaliaihi rajiun..
Mmg typical tau if sth happens in a country, somehow someone living outside that country yg selalu dapat berita dulu..
Hi Sandra,
Thanks for the prayers!
Career options that are leading nowhere? or at dead end for the moment. Must start building the continuing road!
No prob abt that site. Hmmm never heard of TOfu rendang! LOL. Sandra, u hafta give me ur website add tt ur posting the pictures to. I tried to see ur profile but its set to private. u can email me at julissa.adam@gmail.com
As for the news.. in a way its not as bad as the media made it out to be. Mostly there are only peaceful protests (this is pre Benazir's demise). Even then the police will arrest a few just to show they dont agree with it kinda thing?
If you are NOT actually involved in those protests, nor come anywhere near the "heat", it should be just fine.
Previously, it had been just a political agenda that didnt concern the major citizens. But right now they ARE burning and vandalising shops even in Lahore! i still havent seen any video footage of it!
Hid,
If i were lazy, i would have quitted my job already. Just that im not in the mood to be that ultra achiever at the moment. Bcos if i continue my degree... then what will happen when i get pregnant?
and yeah almost the same like, "The wife will always find out last." or something like that.
sis,
its happening here in khi as well.. las fri afternoon, suddenly my eyes, nose n throat were hvng discomfort. apparently they sprayed tear gas n it came into our home!! it happened along the main road.
immediately i brought my 2 sons out of the room...
mfa had called up to ask if everything is ok.
im juz hoping these riots wont last long... n for the record, we were nt able to buy bread 4 bfast. either the shops r closed or its out of stock :(
--wana--
Yeah All the shops are closed. ZUbair cant buy credit to call me also... luckily there's still vTalkers.
OMG SIs Wana... Please take care. Apna khayal rakhna!
hi jus! just thought i'd drop a friendly reminder... hopefully insyaAllah u will remind me too when i need them!
i personally feel its impt for us girls to try and be successful in our careers as best as we can, esp if Allah has given us the skills or intelligence to do so. i think its great that you had dreams of being an actuary, and u have been in the industry long enough now for u to have built the necessary networks. perhaps u can see if there is a role model around (ie another diploma holder who worked her way through a degree, got an exec position etc) and see if it can inspire you.
of course at the same time kena juggle be a good wife, daughter, mother... and it won't be easy. but the demands of life in spore today require dual income kan.. so if we have to work might as well do it well, and be a model Muslim employee who always strives to better herself and be indispensable to the organisation.
the thing is, times are good now and there is temptation to be complacent. yes the pay in MNCs are good but the trade off is that it is not as iron a ricebowl as.. say teaching or other govt jobs. they hire and fire as they please, so we need to ask ourselves if we are value-add enough such that when a crisis hits (and trust me, it will) we will not be on the retrenchment list.
Juzz keep on a look out for an oppurtunity in Land Transport, coz its diversifying into the making of a Transport Academy. Your actuary experience can be of some asset to them...juzz keep looking... Its less stressfull as the financial institution, while you are still doing financing stuff. Juz imagine you need to keep balanace the operating costs and the fares systems of the taxis, buses, and trains system...it is as challenging as drafting an insurance plan isn't it.
If it is an Academy you are in then it will be some kind of a teaching mathemativs to your colleagues etc..
Thanks Butterfly for the reminder. Very enlightening and motivational indeed!
Ayah, look out i will~
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