Dream Child

That day, i had a dream i just gave birth to a baby. at first, i was confused of the gender and kept forgetting. In the end, it was decided to be a boy. His face was sooooooo white and pure... then suddenly he became a toddler... a very cute one with a VERY Round face, almost like a circle. and his fringe were getting into his eyes.. u know the bowl cut hairstyle. haha then i push up his fringe to see his face... and i just cooed.. bcos he is soo cute.

I relate this story to my sisters and their comment, "Oh dah start best nak ada anak lah ni." which means oh u've started to want a child now.

Truthfully, i wasn't really exhilarated abt having children. At first, i told him let's wait for 2 years. but he bargained down to 1 year, just after the dec wedding in Pakistan. 1) I wanna be the hubby's pampered one for as long as i can. 2) and i dont wanna lose sleep bcos of taking care of them and 3) ultimately... i get really SUPER squeamish when i hear pregnancy and birth stories. so u can say im REALLY scared to deliver one..

In any case, we've planned to have 4 kids. ideally, 2 boys 2 girls or 3 boys 1 girl. and the first boy will be named TUFEIL after his maternal grandfather who was almost like a father to him. i like the name TUFEIL bcos: 1) it means "dearest boy" 2) Arabic cum Urdu 3) very diff from typical singaporean malay muslim names

I asked him about girls' names but mostly, they dont SOUND like girlish names like Khursheed. God i still remember in the beginning before marriage he wanted to name his daughter MEHVISH!!! his ex's name. THAT IS SOOO TOTALLY NOT ACCEPTABLE OK??

So we're still hunting for girl's name... we have a few up our sleeves but i want something different like Tufeil... Let's see lah... maybe i should ask Ammi ji for suggestion...